blog is like a virtual diary isn’t it?

i’m happy to love him even if he loves my friend

and how long they can standing still like this?

need to be next to you by leigh nash accompanying me nowadays

i’m playing it on my music player for over than hundred times

i would sit

sketch on my sketchbook

write plans on my notebook

thinking and feelings as i’m afraid there is still things i’ve left behind..

funny how life can goes naturally even if he doesn’t love me

…well

we were friends at the beginning

and we werent lover

and we ended as friend as well..

nothing has change

the only one changing is me

whom loves him

……and the fact that he doesn’t figured it out yet

give advantages for me

even if its still feels hard to pretend as if nothing were going under my mind whenever i’m with him… but the less people who have to suffer because of my love, the better.. if it can be only me.. let it be only me

i love my friend more than i love him

even i thought i’ll look pathetic in front of people who had known that i’m broken hearted..

i never feel sorry for being honest and sincere

its 7:59 am, Bandung.

i still hope that he loves me…not someone else… a useless denial, i know…

but i can’t help to love him, until the time God tell me to stop

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